It depends on the T. It sounds like you have a close relationship, and honestly, that should help. But in order for these feelings to go away, you will have to deal with what caused them. So you will have to deal with your childhood and your mother's neglect and drug abuse. You will have to go through the emotions of grieving and allowing yourself to feel the sadness and loss of the past, and then find how to meet the needs you had ignored now as an adult. It's a long process.