I am so sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time. I too have just been diagnosed with pibolar, generalized anxiety and OCD, I understand how overwhelming it can be. I was told by a few wise members that things do get better. Keep up with the meds and how about counseling?? That may help. The people who love you will eventually understand I am not sure about the whole cultural part though. Don't give up. I have read and heard that once they get the right combo of meds things do start to get easier to deal with. I am still waiting for that day although it has only been about 3 months for me, I still find myself in denial.As far as finding a man to marry, you will find one who loves you for who you are and will be willing to deal with all that goes with it. My doctor asked me if I would be ashamed if I had a heart condition or kidney porblems,, I told him no, he said the brain is an organ too and I should not be ashamed if I have a mental condition either. I have benn thinking about that the past few days and guess what I think he may be right!!!! PLease take care and good luck. you can pm me if you would like. And remember life is worth living