Are you letting him control you still? Are you taking control of your life and doing what you want to do? It's hard to overcome things like this, and I do hope that you get the help you need so that you can make your life what you want it to be. You deserve to really live, not just hang by a thread.

<font color=orange>"If a light beckons to you, follow it. If it leads you into the quagmire, you'll probably find your way out of it again; but if you don't follow it, you'll be plagued for the rest of your life by the thought that perhaps it was your star." Friedrich Hebbet</font color=orange>