Had another melt down earlier today was yelling screaming, cutting and was in desperation mode to kill myself. Oddly enough I was triggered by a junior doctor who told me that the appointment my wife had made to see the consultant was in fact going to be with him. Well I flipped out... Snapping and screaming at everyone, refused to take my medication, packed my bag and was insisting to be let out which of course they refused. Had an argument with one of the care workers (we reconciled later and had a good chat though most of it involved me crying) and it took a while for me to calm down.

Didn't help that the nursing staff where pretty aloof and unhelpful... One even said 'if you calm down we'll get the doctor for you to talk to' which I pretty much screamed 'how the hell is that going to calm me down when it's him that I'm so angry with?'.... Wasn't really helpful on my part

My arm currently stings a bit but serves me right I guess... Took some meds 2 hours later once the staff change had happened and there was a nurse I felt more comfortable talking to.