I.totally she's agree with kaliope. First off I'm so sorry yr struggling right now. Alcohol and drug use is not good while on any of this medication. It makes them not work properly if at all. I used to drink and smoke weed and I felt so hopeless...my meds weren't working properly because I was self medicating with other chemicals.

I can see from yr post that you are really trying to be positive by living one day at a time. Good for you! That's important with mi. Does anyone in yr family support you thru this? You said you have a big family...ads make mania worse yr absolutely right. But some cases people with bp2 depression a little dose of ad works well. It does for me. I've heard that ads are really bad for bp1. But see everyone is different. What works for one may not work for another. You are describing how I felt just 2 months ago. I had to go into the iop program at the hospital. It's the intensive outpatient program. I suffered for almost two years with what you've described. Do you have a good pdoc and therapist? You really need alot of support right now. You can be helped! Many of us have great success stories. I've been where you are! There is hope. You can have a bright future. I did alot of hard work to get where I'm at today. It's not easy. Alot of it can be out of our control cause we need proper meds. And good therapy. So are you only on seroquel? Did you recently get dx as bipolar? You can rant as long as you want. We're here for you. I am now a recovering alcoholic and I feel so much better without it. My meds are well balanced. Finally. Feel free to , pm me anytime. I'd be happy to be there for you.

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