Exam on saturday...what I have study untill now? Almost anything.
In the morning, during the day, I'm so tired I can study, so I slept in the afternoon two days in a row.
i OULD BE SLEEPING NOW IF MY SISTER DIDN'T WAKE ME UP TO HAVE DINNER. i RETURNED TO BED AFTER AND NOW i'M WORRIED ABOUT BEING TIRED AGAIN TOMORROW, NOT BEING ABLE TO STUDY THAT i CAN SLEEP, EVEN i'M STILL TIRED.
I'm not feeling very good today. Early this year I skiped an exam...there were bad times, during two months I would came home after classes to feel so, so, so terrible. It was sort of a turning point in my life. After then I decided to get apart from the people I was hanging out. Today I had to come to the same place to do the pratical exam. Some of those feelings came back. And while my classmates are studying to saturday exam, I had been study for today exam.
It's hard to describe the way I'm feeling, but I'm in a down side today. Because of the exams, because the fact I had to make conversation being very seeply today, and I suck at that particulary when I'm sleepy, and I end up boring people. People I like that because of moments like this just get apart from me.
I don't know if I will sleep tonight. I hope so, cause I really need it. And I run over of my sleeping pills. They don't work quit well. They are benzos, but no the sleep induction type, just the calm down type. I wish my doctor had prescribe me different ones. She just gave me diazepam because at the time I was having muscular spasms. I should asked her something different for times like this.
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