I feel so alone. I have no one to lean on or to just talk to. I hate myself so much and my life. I am so scared to tell any therapist any of this. I'm scared that will take it too seriously. I feel like I am wasting my life. I want to go away somewhere far away and never come back. I want my life to be like it was 2 years ago but it's impossible. I feel so stuck and even if I get help I'm still stuck because I'm too scared to tell them how I really feel. I want my old therapist back so bad. He moved away a couple years ago and I got really attached to him. He is the only one I want to talk to. I just really don't know what to do.