Meds not working. Started Abilify a week ago, felt great up until this morning, well, overall, I felt well. Today, roller coaster all day, tonight 180'ed on my significant other, and turned the entire night over within a matter of minutes. I am so sick and tired of trying to figure out what meds work and tired of destroying my relationship. Tired of destroying him. He must be miserable. We have children, so it's more complicated. I told him from the beginning, "I am best off alone. Just my children and I." Now we have children together, well my children are his and one together. It's more complicated. I don't know how he has lasted this long, has held one, put up with me. Still loves me. I don't know. But I do know he doesn't understandably understand me. And I do know, he cannot take much more. He is so strong, but how strong is a person to be just to be happy in a relationship?