Honestly, we are very good at keeping our children in "blind sight". I know that's not always feasible to do, but our oldest is only 5. Yes children are very intuitive and she is very smart, but we have improved greatly as far as keeping certain conversations to each other. They do, she does, unfortunately see me cry often, and mood swing. I always reassure her it's not because of her, not her fault, etc. Our boys are very young, both under 2 so...I just want this figured out and correct meds before they get older. I am just starting back at therapy so hope it helps. Meds are tricky right now, finished nursing, postpartum, was pregnant back to back. I am a hormonal mess on top of everything else. Anyway, I keep going on! I apologize, but yes, seeking pro help, went last week, going again this week. Thank you