Even upon weaning off of Cymbalta didn't seem to help. Now I have a much higher libido and be fully aroused/get off quickly and easily, but contact with another person is still a no-go. I want desperately to like it because I don't get much out of masturbation other than some relief. There's obviously no emotional connection to be had and nothing special about it…even the orgasms mean nothing to me anymore. But I feel a need to do it more and more often.

And now, even though I have the opportunity (for once in my life) to have contact with another person (even if just kissing), I can't get over the thought of how disappointing it will be and I have no interest to do anything with someone else. Yet I feel empty and that I'm missing something irreplaceable.