I had a session earlier in the week and I had a pretty bad flashback. I don't remember the actual event, but I know that it happened because I know the signs and after effects. I remember feeling light headed, and the room starting to sink in, but after that my memory is blank. Afterwards I was exhausted, and continued to slip between present reality and the past traumas. All day I would randomly get teary and if I didn't catch myself would have mini outbursts/sobs. I strained throughout work to keep myself from drowning in the memories that were flooding my mind and when I got out I feel asleep for hours.

This was exactly how I felt last time and that was a terrible flashback, awful! I had both hoped and assumed that today at our session T would discuss what happened with me and fill in the missing spots.

She didn't!! We talked about such random things! And at one point I thought she was going to say something, but instead just reminded me that she was gone the following week! I know that she knows I don't remember, she is aware that when I dissociate I have absolutely no memory of it, but I thought she would want to tell me. I need to know what happened!! Was I mean to her? Did I yell? Did I try to hurt her or leave the room? Wtf happened!!!

I know if I wanted to talk about it I should have brought it up, but I needed her to start and she never did. Note I'm stuck wondering why she didn't, if there was a reason she is keeping this from me as well as the possibility that this had happened other times and she had said nothing.

I'm venting a little, but also going to hear how others would handle this situation, esp since I won't see her for another week