I noticed that the meds you are on are relatively low doses. Are you newly diagnosed or starting new treatment?

I understand how you feel, the change of getting better can be scary and your emotions can be really raw. I remember the first time I sought treatment I felt like I had no skin. It was terrible, and I dumped my treatment in favor drinking and being crazy. I eventually dropped the booze, but I was still crazy, and sometimes it felt good to be that way.

The thing with manic confidence is that its not lasting. Medicated or not, it always goes away. You can build your life back better with treatment. A strong, healthy you is in there.