Well, Brokenentity, your post certainly has generated allot of replies! I haven't read all of them. But it appears most are exhorting you to not drink. And then, somewhere along the line, the question of making friends came into play. And, here, I see you're saying you don't want to make friends. You like to be reclusive.

I get this. I don't have, or particularly want friends. I do have acquaintances. I guess, if I could have exactly the friend I'd like, perhaps I would like to have a friend. But, since I can't get one made-to-order, I'm fine just being by myself. And, as far as drinking goes, I always used to drink. Sometimes I would also binge drink. But when I went on antidepressants, I stopped drinking with no problems. (And I LOVE the taste of alcoholic beverages.) So a few drinks now-&-again don't strike me as a bad sign necessarily.

The thing is here, I feel the need to ask you if you are hiding from the real issue? I think you & I both know what that is. It is certainly true that this could be said of me. But I'm in my 60's. You're in, what, your 20's? Let me tell you, there's a BIG difference! Knowing what I know now, if I was in my 20's, there's no question what I would be doing. Of course, this may or may not be right for you. But, from my perspective, you're too young to be locking yourself away. It may work for a while. But it's not going to serve you well for another 40 or 50 years or more.

Perhaps I'm just off track here. And if I am, please forgive me. "I'm just a soul whose intentions are good. Oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood." I have your best interest at heart...