Wants 2 Fly,
There is no "way" that you are suppose to be feeling. Everyone is affected differently by things in their life. Please do not be hard on yourself. This is the depression talking to you right now.

Jessica

<font color=blue>The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain</font color=blue>
~Seether and Amy Lee