Just wanted to write that in some cases I am also not sure if something really happened or is it only my sick imagination... Especially that in general I have a very good memory and I always thought that I remember every single detail but apparently not... and more memories are coming back and at the beginning I am like "what the hell, I didn't know that before, so maybe it didn't happen, maybe I just think about it so much that I've created that?" But as time comes back, I realize that this was not an imagination... I think it comes with time and work but in my opinion the most important is how it makes me feeling...

Don't want to write anything more as you deleted your post in purpose, but I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone... Take care