i think it's hard for me to feel optimistic when even those around me aren't. my pcp was more than willing to order tests (and threw in a couple more that we brainstormed) but she wasn't sure if i'd get more info.

we'll see what the pdoc says if there's a new med to try. i've been on so many! they look at their list and they've told me i've been on ones in every class (i've been on well over a dozen).

i work really hard at dbt and I'm pretty skillful. I'm "re-taking" dbt after five years just because i need the support right now. i agree that meds don't do much good if you don't restructure your thinking. dbt has been invaluable that way.

thanks. i'll try not to be pre-disappointed lol.