I know he has so many red flags, but I know I was not able to meet anybody to love before. I was married and it didn't last even couple of years. At least with him, I have more common and interests. But yes, lately, he's treating me really poorly and I don't like it.
He's at my home and he brings his kids which he has 50% custody. Then he tells me what to do in my own home. Or sometimes, he tells me they are more comfortable when I'm not at home. Or he's asking me when I go for a vacation by myself then he can be relax at home (which is my home!).
I think my time passing is bothering me. Thinking that I've never been able to have kids or have a family. But at the same time, what is this broken family of his that I am adopting?
It was so good when I met him for the first few months, then once his kids got introduced to me and he moved in with me, everything has changed. The ugly truth has been revealed.
I still want to hang in here and see if things go better.
I think I need more friends. I don't have any family here and not many friends since I moved to US few years ago.
I feel this is my challenge. He's making me a better person by forcing me to be patient. I'm not sure if we end up together, but at least I will be a different person.
I wish I had at least one child.
I hope this month......
I know it might be wrong, but I want child more than anything else and it's getting really late. At the same time, I freak out when I think about being single mother!