Hello, SteinerofThule. What you are doing is not working. If professional help is no longer an option, and the status quo is a free fall, what do you intend to do? Are you able to identify behaviors that need to be changed? Are you able to formulate a treatment plan with manageable goals to enhance achievement of the results you seek?

My thought, as others have stated, is to give professional help another go.

I wish you well.