dudes there is something wrong with me, i want to screw, no really i do, in the last 2 days i pulled 2 tourists, both female americans, both in there low 20's i spent the whole day with taking one around london today, was all set up, couldnt do it, what the %#@&#! is wrong with me? the words on a plate do not do it justice, me and little man went home, what the heck am i waiting for?, who do i think is going to be the one for me?, answers on a postcard please, i
know what i want, or who i want, and nothing else will do, but should i really give up the chance of 20 somethings inbetween? dude klil me i am %#@&#!.ed up.

i wish my mental health was healthy, the reason i say that is i want them to hurt has much has i am, but i cant do that, to them or me, either way i am screwed, or not, guys i need your advice should i go for it with these girls or wait for the woman i want?