Anger sounds perfectly reasonable to me. I'm really glad you can post about your true feelings here. I also hope you have some close friends you can talk to about those real honest feelings. I can't recall if you are in therapy now or not, but if it's possible, this may be a good time to consider that option. IMO, talking is the only thing that helps at all. It gets those emotions out - whatever they are, anger, fury, deepest pain.

I'm sure since you already lost a child you've read enough about grief to know that one loss will trigger the pain of other losses. So some of what you are feeling about this child is hitting you right where the pain of your own loss is stored. Does it feel like it's opening up that wound all over again?

I know that's what happens to me whenever I go through a grief experience, or even if I help a friend grieve. Please keep posting. ALL your feelings are OK. And please talk to people who will understand this. Hugs to you!

Emmy