I have Bipolar and have recently started a new medication. I have had body image/weight issues in the past but always leaned more toward eating less/skipping meals when I was going through those times..

A few weeks ago, I got extremely nauseous from my medication and after a few hours, had to purge to make myself feel better. After realising how easy it was, I continued to do it (NOTE: I would take my meds afterward so I wasn't throwing them up)
It has become almost daily or every second day. I've also been trying to eat very low calorie foods and feel very bad if I eat something that isn't..

Last night, I went out to dinner and afterward pretended to call someone but instead went to the bathroom.. I didn't really want to but when I got there I just did.

When I'd gotten rid of as much as I could, and trying to get more up (after many attempts) a lot of blood came up, coated in thick saliva... I'm a bit freaked out. I need to stop this, I know, but I get the compulsion and just go and do it. At the time I want to and don't want to stop myself. I know that sounds bad. I can't tell anyone I know, either. My mum was bulimic for many years when she was younger and would have a fit if she knew. My husband wouldn't know what to do, and I don't know whether to tell my pdoc in a few weeks when I go back. I just don't know.