I don't necessarily want to be married, & I'm almost certain that I don't want kids, so it's actually not that bad.

Recently my best friend from high school (we're not close anymore) had her baby, & I was very happy for her! I know she'll make a great mom. I did feel a little pouty, so to speak, thinking about how people will never be congratulating me for something like that. But then I remembered that I chose this life, & that this is the way that I want to live, with no kids. I could choose differently, but I know that deep down, that's not what I want.

I used to doubt myself a lot in the past, & think about how one day I would realize that I had wasted a good chunk of my life pretending I didn't want something that I really did want. That was really what made me sad & kind of depressed, not so much that everyone I knew was getting married & having kids. Just that feeling of one day realizing I regret all of my life's choices.