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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse
...and I'm having a hard time getting my mind off wanting to be out of this mess I've created. I haven't done anything and promised my friends I wouldn't, but it's really hard even though I think this whole thing is a massive overreaction to stupid stresses that anyone can go through….
Frankly, I don't think I have the guts to kill myself, and that's probably a good thing, at least for the people who care about me. But I'm also not sure I have the cojones to handle having my life fall apart around me either. I don't know WTF to do. All I know is I'm not going to do anything foolish tonight. Thanks for being here.
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Always.
What? Create? You haven't created a mess. Stuff happens. You
didn't create it, so don't beat yourself up about it, ok?
It's stressful stuff, to be sure. I don't think anyone would just la-di-da skip through it like nothing. So no need to give them any more credit than yourself. You are just as mighty. Sure, it doesn't feel that way right now. But you will be able to see it in hindsight. In a way, with BP, you have an advantage. WHAT?! You understand the transitory. And the way something can feel SO much a certain way at a given point in time, but not be permanent. And later to be pulled out of the depths in ways that were impossible to see in that earlier time.
One minute at a time if that's what it takes. You can make it through things you would never have believed.
Wishing you sweet
tonight. Everything else can wait.