Thanks Zinco...I am off medication, and am contemplating a return to that. Stopping alcohol has not made things worse, or better. I suspect that I'm saving money, and I'm not waking up with any hangovers...deep depression was not with me when I was working at something that I enjoyed. I left that partially due to institutional politics, but also to return to help my wife with a family business...it's just been a slide into deeper depression because of this business that I loathe, and there is not a medication in world that will cure that...and thanks for the non-recommendation on the alcohol....