I'm the same way. I never seem able to relate to others very well, and being in a rural area I've never had interests of those around me because I always liked to explore. I was into alternative music back in the 80s in high school before anyone around here had even heard of it and was just listening to what was on the local radio. So I've never really had any close friendships, especially after school when everyone I did know went their separate ways. I'm not a drinker, either, and it seems no one really wants anything to do with you if you're not. I suppose to those who are drinkers we're just not any fun. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone... Have gone through it all my life so far.