I hate the fact that i need to take these tablets every day just to get by, but in January my pdoc stated as bluntly as poss that even with my meds I could still slip every couple of years or so (that seems to be my pattern) and that I will most likely need to take them for the rest of my life. So as much as I hate it, and hate what I think others will think of me, i know i need them to keep as well as i can. TC