SkyWhite, I hope the art session helped. I have found that and playing music and practicing my choreography helps get me outside of my head. So much of the time being alone inside my head is not a good thing...tends to spiral me down very quickly. Are the things I do at that point considered distractions? Maybe...but the alternative is worse. Sometimes the work is just too hard and overwhelming.

ty Rainbowfairy...you gave me a lightbulb moment. Yes, I can talk and talk and talk about the horrors of my childhood. connecting with the feelings? completely different story.