Hey Hun ...

I really hate seeing you in such a distressed state.. You have had way more than your fair share of shyt times. Of course its normal to feel the way you do because of your current situations... But, this depression is a driving force right now that is causing you to doubt things and beat yourself up ... You know this deep down.

Now is the time to call your wonderful Pdoc and get some help medication wise .. But its also time to take care of you and find ways to decrease the feelings your having. You have kids that love you and a husband that adores you .. that is what really matters .

Please stay safe PM me anytime