Diagnosed at 19, denied it. Blamed it on drug use.

Diagnosed again at age 32, this time with textbook full blown mania.
Accepted it, then denied it, claiming I was "healed by god".

Then I finally gave up all my religious delusions, became an atheist, FINALLY accepted my DX, and got a good Pdoc, joined this forum and I feel better than ever.

I am very GLAD that I finally accept my disease, it's much easier to mange that way!