I always wanted a big brother too, Inny. My dad was kind of emotionally distant when I was a child (just the way he was brought up). My best friend when I was a child had 2 older brothers and I was jealous. I have always had lots of male friends who are like brothers to me. My ex-boyfriend is my best friend now and he is like the wise older brother I always wanted -- someone who makes me feel safe and is always there for me.