I would go with past CSA messing with me and work on that. I would want to feel whatever there is available to be felt, being human, and having been attracted/fallen in love with my husband through our romantic feelings back 30 years ago, would not have wanted to miss that experience for anything. Of course, if I felt aromantic, I would not know what I was "missing" but, looking around, there are experiences I can see other's having that I aspire to?