or feel, for that matter!

A series of events has taken place in the last few days. 1) DH took a couple of quizzes here and one stood out for both of us... or at least, the result to one of the questions did. He's totally disconnected from his partner/spouse. That means me. It's nothing new to me, but the reminder hurt.

2) My daughter, who hasn't spoken to me in almost 10 yrs is in town for Easter. Guess who gets top priority to whatever festivities there are this weekend? She does! Again, I get left out.

2a) DH has dinner with her family and with our youngest and his family last night. I asked DH to bring me back "a house special". When he got back, it wasn't the house special but a nasty looking quesadilla full of jalapenos, sour cream and guacamole. PUKE! I don't eat hot stuff and avocados make me deathly ill. Of course it wasn't DH's fault but still...

3) I haven't heard from my so-called best friend in 3D but maybe twice since last November. Her mother has been in town but it's never stopped us from getting together before.

Yesterday, we were supposed to go out to lunch. We planned this a week ago. Long story short, she didn't show up and she didn't call. I left a message on her machine that she was on my ***** list now. When she finally called back, she gave me her excuse. When I asked her why she didn't call she said "Uh... I just didn't." That pretty much ruined a good part of my day. I was angry.

I woke up during the night and I woke up mildly angry and confused. I woke up this morning and I'm more confused than angry but I'm going to do what I usually do in circumstances like this. She'll be pretty much out of my life; "you screw with me once, shame on you. you screw with me twice, shame on ME." It's not going to happen again.

If she calls next week, like she said she would, I'm not going out with her and neither am I going to get ready to go out just to be left waiting. She can come over and we can spend time here; I might even fix lunch, but I'm not going to hold my breath.

Ok... so this is the story of my life. I'm teetering on anger and resentment and feeling sorry for myself and wondering why people treat me this way. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??? Why do people treat me this way?? It's not because I LET THEM!