Hello,

Well there are mediums out there, but they are not cheap. So I can't afford that route. I mean I am a medium myself, but not NEARLY as good as someone like the Long Island Medium for example. When I get messages, they are random. I have not learned how to control how to get messages on demand.

But I do have a way to talk to the spirit and I am trying. I thought since the spirit clearly has the ability to move objects like my bed, the spirit can move a pen too. So what I have been doing (or trying to do) is I made myself a makeshift spirit board. Nothing fancy, just two rows containing the alphabet. Then I did a test to see if it would work and while lightly holding the pen I instructed the spirit to push right or left to move to another letter, and then when the pen is over the letter it wants then have it push the pen downward.

I got one message the other day that said "Get me away". The message does make sense when I connect it to a dream visit I had with said spirit. He (showed himself as a hispanic male around 40 years old) and said he doesn't like being around the other spirits that are here and wants me to get them away, or for him to be able to get away from them.

But the hispanic male is the powerful one. I call him J, short for John. But then again, when I asked him to spell his name I got only a partial spelling of LE. So maybe John wasn't his name. That was the name I heard, so perhaps John is one of the other spirits LE wants to get away from. I know the hispanic guy isn't alone. A black male around 20 years old is here as well.

So bottom line is I have found a way to talk. It's just that the information is coming slowly. He will give info for a few seconds and stop, like he's running out of energy trying to push the pen to letters. Don't get me wrong here, as much trouble and pain that he's caused me, I DO wish to help him find peace. But the hispanic male J seems to think I can bring him back to life.

He came to me another time in a dream saying that he believes I have the power to bring him back to life. He's afraid to go into the light/Heaven for fear of being judged/punished. Through a friend I found out J was gay during his lifetime and had a male partner he was in love with. His partner is still alive.

But I think J is afraid that he's going to go to hell for being gay. I know there is no punishment waiting for gay. There is nothing wrong with someone being gay/lesbian. But he died in the 1940's. All through history we have been told to be gay is a sin and you go to hell for it. It's just been recently that gays have had the right to marry among other things and are slowly being fully accepted. But I think he may have died believing he's going to Hell and so wishes for me to bring him back to life so he can skip going to Heaven and being reincarnated process. But as much as I have told him I can't bring him back to life, he believes that I am just refusing to do it.

All this information gathered over the last few years of him coming to me in dreams. Many of the said dreams he does his best to scare me. Such as the dream where he folded the mattress over like a taco to suffocate me. Or others where he picks me up against the wall by the neck. Maybe he thinks if he can scare me enough I will bring him back to life then. But I am going to keep trying to do the pen and letters to get information. It's just such a slow process and meanwhile he won't stop attacking. Thanks for the support. Just so difficult to cope with the attacks. I am just soooo tired.

-Stanley