Hey Seeker-

Totally agree. I don't equate this to those stupid pacts you have to sign to keep the skrinks happy. I think it'sawesome that you were able to do this on your own. I started a few weeks ago, but I did it like this-one day at a time. I believe there is not only strength in numbers, but strength in knowing it is just as difficult for one person as it is for everyone else and that makes me feel like the angels have my back. Again.

Did that make any sense? Hope so, because I can't remember the last time I slept. Going on three days, I think. But it's okay. I'm used to it. It's been a tough day all around. (can I rant a little?) Even my spoiled cat is messing with me. You know how a little kid will stand next to you and look up and say mommy, mommy, mommy over and over again in the same tone of voice until you finally say 'Shut up!' Well, Little Man does the same thing except it's meow, meow, meow. I had to throw him out of the lair and shut the door. Cat weighs sixteen pounds and wants to eat six times a day. And it had better be the expensive stuff. Does that make me kitty whipped?

To be honest, I spent so much time on this today that there wasn't any time for work. But don't get me wrong-it was totally worth it. I was in the kitchen, thinking that I'm going to have to find another roommate again, and the bad thoughts were trying to wiggle their way in. But I said no.
They only snickered at me and I could feel that catastrophizing, or however you spell it, bringing up the list. (I feel ya, Rainbowfairy.) So I said NO! It backed off a little. Then I yelled (in my mind) YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE! And it worked. In my mind I sounded like Moses. So I just took a few deep breaths, reminding myself that I have several hours left on my 24 and they just can't get in right now.

Take that! And that! I hope you all had a good day, that you were mostly successful and that you'll be back tomorrow.

Love and peace, Tea