Hey Tea. Agree about those stupid pacts that therapists want us to sign. It would be better to help create a desire to live before pushing one of those pacts at me. I signed it robotically. This was about 3 years ago.

I have been with my current T I guess about a year. When my depression took a nosedive I knew that I was in a very vulnerable place. On my own I chose safety and life. Was my heart in it? No. But I know firsthand that clinging to sui thoughts was highly dangerous. I chose to go on living even though I was in total misery.

Hope your pet leaves you alone and lets you sleep.