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Originally Posted by waiting4
I refuse to take meds...and it's cost me. But I work with my T (doing a lot of stuff I think is straight up stupid, but oh well) have done some DBT, Mindfulness helped some....mostly just working with my T seems most successful.
Sometimes, I just cry. Go into my hole and bawl my eyes out. When that happens more than once a day I know it's gonna be a tough week. I've been better, I've been worse, but honestly, finally understanding what the hell is wrong with me is probably been more help than anything else. Just knowing I'm not alone in this...because I've been so alone in this.
For some, I think meds are helpful...just not for me.
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Dear Waiting4,
my partner has been using mindfulness meditation for panic and has had very good success with it. I bought him a book and corresponding CD as a present, and he has been really dedicated to it - he saw benefits very quickly. Silent meditation wasn't for me - I have always lacked a voice, so my self-care must involve providing me with a voice, hence I chant - it is basically "noisy meditation".
But I, like you, have found the most benefit in simply being in therapy and relearning what healthy relating is with my therapist modelling. I chose a male, as my primary problem was with my fathers (absent blood father, abusive stepfather). I recently received a "review" from my therapist, that I asked for (so I have something to look back on - memory isn't great) and one of the things he said was that he believes my willingness to engage deeply in therapy, even when it was petrifying, is what has driven our sucess. All the therapy in the world won't help us if we aren't ready to really get vulnerable and uncomfortable. And it is beautiful when we realise that we didn't die from it! Vulnerability - in a safe place at first - actually shows us what we are made of.