What you say feels rigid to me, you want to think one way or feel one way or another. We cannot control our thoughts and feelings, they just are. All we can control is our actions. It is tempting to smoke, give in to the urges but you have to remember why you do not want to smoke (not just that you do not want to smoke) and put that against the urges to smoke and then act on what you want rather than what you feel. Yes, the feelings are wants, also, and it is not good to be either just a thinker/logical or just a feeler but you have information that the feelings are "false", part of an addiction and that smoking is truly bad for your health. If someone gave you a poisoned drink and told you to drink it, told you it was poison, you would not drink it even if they threatened you in some other way. You would hold out for rescue/something else to change, let them go through with their threat, before you would give in. View the urges not as "wrong" but as threats to you. Your body is being held hostage and being used against you. You are trying to rescue your body. Don't give in.