Hi TJ, thanks for sharing And what is really good in that is that you sought help, even if it was after the SI, you sought help!!
Real credit to you for that!!!
Now the feeling normal to good doesn't necessarily have to have vanished on you (even if right now you aren't feeling it).
It might be just like you said things have caught up on you.........and with some more help.............
Do you think you could talk to someone there about the way you're feeling?? You have found some of them supportive before haven't you? And if they're not going to know what you're feeling they can't give you that support/help they're there to offer you can they??
But could there have been any triggers, do you think??
I know you really like to see your dog (and it sounds like you need that!!) but perhaps it's making it resonate how you're not home, how things aren't "normal"/run-of the-mill etc???
But it's all about what's best for you, right now!! And you deserve help, all the help you need!!!
And don't forget we're right here for you.............

Alison