Ed, more than anything, you need to know that YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS ALONE!! Nobody your age should ever have to deal with a situation like this, and you have done an incredible job of it so far. Yeah, you may be scared and upset, but that doesn't mean you haven't been working incredibly hard to make your situation as good as you possibly can.

At this point, all I can tell you is that I pray your situation improves and you find the help you need. I think Perna's idea of making some friends, and then asking their parents how you can help your family, is a great idea. Fact is, there are responsible adults somewhere where you are, and if you can find them they WILL help you out. I just hope and pray that you do.

Keep us all updated, okay? Everyone at PC is incredibly kind, and ready to help if you need it.

yours,
~muse