Thank you for answering.

i guess i am confused because i have zero sexual experience and lots of confusing and contrasting non-sexual (but maybe romantical?) experiences with people at the emotional, physical and mental level.

maybe chosing a label for myself and my sexual identity is not so crucial since in the end it is what it is, and with everyone its different, but it is the confusion and the not knowing and wondering and lacking of datum ponits that hurts me.

also maybe because i have the hope that if i knew what i like and dislike once for all i could take a step in the right direction while at the moment i feel totally lost and without hope. because it seems like i want what i dont want but i dont want what i have either.

thank you for your support and letting me talk about this.