Hi!

Please feel free to share your thoughts here any way you want. Indeed if it makes any difference, I liked to read what you wrote, I liked the honesty and your self conscious.
And I don't think being not inteligent is the same thing of not went to college or having a great career. I don't know what career you have, but from the way I view things you shouldn't feel ashamed about it. God, if only brilliant people got a life few one would get married or have a partner, most people would be single.
Indeed, from what I see around, not having an high pay demanding job can sometimes be a vantage, the way, keep it simple..."great power brings great responsability". Not the money part for sure.

When we are not satisfied with our lifes, when we feel bad the way we are living and the way we are keep us from being happy, even if your depression is just "moderated" you should even so try to change things...

Keep posting and wellcome.