i was thinking about something similar to this yesterday. i was looking through an old sketchbook i found that i drew and wrote in. i was definitely more creative when i was psychotic and not consistently taking my meds but now that i do take my meds every day i feel less creative. like im inhibited. and dulled down. it makes me sad and it's f_cked up but i kind of miss being that creative. it was good hobby to have.