Tomorrow is a big family thing I have to go to. I am getting ready to make my pie and have dyed my eggs. I am trying to get myself in the family mood though. My family is very interested in my eating habits. Before my surgery it was Jan you eat too much..now its Jan you don't eat enough have some more. I tell them no I'm full and they don't get the concept. Then we don't do anything when we get together. The men in one room watching T.V. and sleeping and the women in the other room gossiping. The little kids running around with my Grandma telling them not to run. I don't want to go but if I don't they will be talking about me in the gossip session so don't want to do that. I am thinking about taking one of my textbooks to study for my test I have on Tuesday but then I know I won't do that cuz I will be told I'm being rude because I'm not talking. I just can't do anything to please my family and it stresses me out. I have a feeling that I will be leaving my T a voice mail message when I get home tomorrow. I would drive myself and then leave when I want to but dad told me I can't do that. I can't win for losing.

Jbug