Hi, I'm not schizophrenic but my depression has psychotic features to it so I sometimes browse the schizophrenia and psychosis forums when I need some comfort in that aspect although I usually stick to the depression forum. I am not a psychiatrist so I can't tell you if you have any mental illness or not, like the others said if you need help it's best to contact a pdoc or therapist or someone like that. Many schizophrenics have been extremely successful in life, have you ever watched A Beautiful Mind, John Nash is an extremely intelligent man. Just because you may get a diagnosis it does not mean that your life is over, you can't let a diagnosis become you. Anyways I wish you the best.