Grrr I'm sorry to hear you are suffering so!

It's a vicious cycle, this one of anger and depression. Have you checked yourself out on the most basic of cognitive distortions (sticky posted at the top of the psychotherapy forum) ????

Black and white thinking, along with catastrophizing...

For some of us, we may never break totally free of depression (it's a medical illness too imo)... and how long you have been suffering or working on healing has nothing to do with TODAY... and we have to always focus on today, first.

Saying it will be a long weekend can be depressing in itself. Try a good reframe if you can, on that one. Have you tried all the medicines that have worked for some for depression? Why not, when you are angry and your friends notice, have a key word for them to say to remind you NOT to be angry at them, and to try and do some things with them. Distraction is good for depression. It is when we can no longer focus on anything but ourselves and the mess we are in that depression tightens it's grip. Do all you can to resist.

BTW, therapy doesn't fix us... it helps us to suffer less... and less hopefully... TC