Dear Thiswayout,

if I end the movie, I end any potential for orgasm - it seems they share a strong pathway. I cannot recall one incidence of one without the other.

I am sorry you are struggling with this too, and kudos for taking it into therapy - that was a very hard thing (for me anyway) to tell - I was/am so ashamed. I "know" I have nothing to be ashamed about though.

I really think it could work - it makes sense with how the brain works - I'm not a neuro-anything, but I do know that pathways that are used regularly strengthen, and those that are not weaken. I think we could view a pathway as an association from A to B. A = movie, B = orgasm. That's probably oversimplified, but that is my thinking.

OK, I think I will start a journal about this, so that if it works, others can try it too. I just need to make a quit day. I have already told my partner I'm doing this and he is supportive. Right I'll start today.

The journal will be called Rainbowfairy vs. ASF (Abusive Sexual Fantasies). I'll keep it in this forum, and I'll update progress on there.