Hi ThisWay, sounds like you need a little more from your T, especially now?? A little more support, some more suggestions or help in following through further the one's they've made?? It doesn't make it your fault or that you're at a loss with the therapy at all if it isn't helping that much. It more so says that you and your T may need to find some more/different approaches/techniques.
But anniversaries can bring a whole lot of feelings back, and bring some really difficult feelings to the surface. I don't know if it might help to focus as much as you can on what you have left, on what you still have, on what you can still have. It might not make those feelings go away but if you can shift the balance just a little??
If you want to talk a bit about the losses though we're here for you, if not that's OK too. But as for the less support bit, if nothing else just remember that we're still here and you can still find support with us.

Alison