Hi TJ, by now you've got to know that whatever you say you're not convincing me that you're worthless or stupid, because "bottom line" you're not!!!
What we're really talking about is that the feelings....urges.....completely overwhelmed you, right? Not a choice, right?
They just stepped in/took over before you could fight them off. And I know you've done a whole lot of real fighting to try to keep them away, it's just this time they were too strong.
And you/anyone can only do so much.
But this doesn't necessarily mean that you're back where you started in the "bigger picture". You've still got the progress you made (you're making!!) under your belt.
Now with what you've gone through/you're going through there might be slips......there might be times when.......but that doesn't need to mean that you're not getting there.
So now..........back to carrying on with pulling on as many coping methods as you can, hey?? Don't let this incident define the progress you have made!!
Alison