I find that I am interested in this topic during certain periods of my life and not in others. Right now, I am not interested. For me, if I examine that question, I come up with the answer that there is no purpose, no point. It's not a pleasing line of thought.

I prefer a more hedonistic approach to life, not necessarily in a gluttonous sense, but in an enjoyment sense. If I think about that, I also get distressed -- so I tell myself it is simply an experiment for the next few months, to enjoy what I can