Hello Tea&Sympathy,

So far I have done the sage to the point of choaking on the smoke. Filled the room with it. With the salt, tried table salt and sea salt along the windows and doors. I had read about the salt thing awhile back. No effect. The lack of sleep is taking a toll on my body. I feel similar to having the flu and have started having chest pain. I know my body can't handle this much longer.

I tried to talk to my mom about it this morning. She wanted to know why she hasn't seen me in a few days. Although I have been laying in bed trying to sleep, I can only get 5-10 minutes. Not nearly enough time for the nap (if you can call it that) to make any different in going on 4 days with almost no sleep. She asked why I seem depressed. Well if she hadn't slept in 4 days while being touched and kept awake near constantly she would be pretty depressed too.

Anyway she comes off with "Ah, you will be fine" and leaves. I didn't tell her, but all last night I faught SI'ing. I have worked hard to more or less quit the cutting. I know how good it always makes me feel. But of course then I spend weeks covering up my arms and with it being summer that would suck. But I just feel like "screw it" kind of feeling. I just wish this thing (whatever it is) would just leave me alone. It's been 3 years dealing with this and I just can't do it anymore.

Thanks for the suggestions though Tea&Sympathy. I will look into a voodoo shop thing. Hopefully the price isn't a ton. And isn't a scam. I have already been scamed once trying to get rid of this spirit. I was referred to a facebook group of a woman who claimed to do long distance work of ridding houses of spirits. But required me to buy her "kit" for $25.00. My gut told me not to. One of the members of the group ended up paying for it for me.

I got the kit and did the instructions as she said. No change. Then she told me it was my fault saying that it's not her fault if I am not ready to let the spirit go. And then wrote again trying to blame my experiences on a medical disorder for woman (I am male) where their nerves in the genitals of sensitive and can feel like touching. ONE, I am not female. And two, IF I had that issue, how does my said nerves issue then explain the bed raising up and down? I don't have nerves in my mattress. She was just mad she got busted for being a fake. I am willing to try anything at this point, but I don't have money to blow of fake solutions that do nothing.

-Stanley